Running with Scissors ;

2004-10-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

cough cough! whoa dusty! havent touched this blog in ages . hello people im going crazy

IT

2004-09-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

ITS ALIVE . ITS ALIVE.
my blogs back to life . At least for now . I must Admit , Amath as shitty , Chem was shitty , and perhaps physics. It seems that people have been visint my blog , more often than even i do, which makes me feel a wee bit guilty.

Ugh , I slacked the entire day. I confess , I didnt touch a single book , I played soccer for the entire day . And i touched up on broken . ugh.. i feel so unproductive , i better shake this skin off .

2004-09-28T14:31:00.000+08:00

Recently on Kenneths life:
-Drank a GIGANTIC cup of chinchow
-Ate the most delicious chicken chop on earth! EVER

Hmm, went swimming , and studying , swimming does allow increased absorbsion rate , perhaps i could do that more often!

Recently , Kenneth Has been pissing off ALof of people . Feeling apologetic , he is apologizing now . NOT . I live for that stuff haha, right chicken chop store owner . ugh . perhaps not . depends ..

2004-09-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

Introducing my permernant photo log JESTER FARMS PERCH its not really completed though , some photos uploaded

2004-09-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

layout

2004-09-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

The bitter sweet taste of REVENGE
We came , we beat them , after being beaten last week, i feel so good , yet so bad.

2004-09-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

Fearless Gap toothed older lian , Versus The youthful Mindless Ah beng Whom owns a Chai peng store.

You might have guessed it , The strangest squabble I have ever seen. The strange thing was , the squabble didn't involve the two parties , until somebody naturally stuck his nose in.

Its so senseless , I wouldn't make sense explaining the situation , however , it was quite entertaining to watch the ah beng , whip out his mobile to call for back up. " Black van stops over , the door flings open , the whole gang of franchise chai peng store owner brotherhood rushes out and threatens the the gap toothed fool. with chopsticks and forks . Fearing for her life , she threatens to attack them back if they dare to inflict physical harm to her. Now We see why she has a gap tooth smile. Looks like she literally asked for it."

2004-09-19T09:59:00.000+08:00

Ohhhh Ohhh Ohhh........
I haven't been blogging for awhile . Burried in books , and photoshop. Man , i better stop playing with that programme and start working . Everything seems to be seeping through my hands , like water , except something less dense . Something that you can't get a grasp on , but you need to .

I pray to somebody whom i don't believe in . I put myself in deciet all the time . It revolves round me , Im the center of the universe! im being obnoxious.

2004-09-17T11:36:00.000+08:00

and not forgetting...

2004-09-17T10:53:00.000+08:00

completed face

2004-09-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

not even half done

2004-09-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

almost finished

2004-09-15T09:06:00.000+08:00

Confessions of a newly recurited soccer fan.
Chelsea against PSG 3-0
well , because of waiting for the match, i awoke like a zombie.

2004-09-15T02:18:00.000+08:00

the unfinished project . of the crying fool series

2004-09-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

So empty , yet so occupied.
I didn't want to scare my comrade with me . I saw flashes of black at the corner of my eye . Well, there was a mysterious brown liquid , with egg like objects stuck on it . The place was a purple tint all over , last human inside , december 1995.

2004-09-12T18:28:00.000+08:00

Digging up the past.
looking back at the past year , perhaps even much this year , I've realized how much of an asshole I am. Hey Arthur Wu , you've just found a new rival.

2004-09-12T18:17:00.000+08:00

latest uncompleted project

2004-09-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

added in pierced heart

2004-09-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

there we go...

2004-09-11T09:51:00.000+08:00

while playing wiht the bg of my unfinished project....

2004-09-11T09:37:00.000+08:00

the unfinished project

2004-09-09T17:55:00.000+08:00

Let us analyse the pros and cons of Signing on as a CLT .

Date of submittion : ( i guess after prelims)

Pros :
*Since I intend to enroll in a polytechnic , there are no tangiable benifits , except forthe loyalty i have for my unit . Besides , It'll be fun to relive the good old days , with most of my platoon mates around me . Unfortunately , it'll never be the same . We're no longer recruits , or privates or anybody who just takes orders. Now if we pull through , we must set the direction for the unit . With the new officer taking command of the unit , who knows what strange ideas his mind can churn up. Perhaps if we actually pull through the CLT course , it'll be like a revamped version of our specialist days. Well , it'll be fun watching the unit develop , seeing it grow.
*At least i still have my Saturdays
*I get my family back.
Cons :
*Every seven days , one day has to be spent going down to AMQ camp , and the school I so love , to detest . (it does have the widest variety of people on the other hand)
*Once again , responsibilities such as courses and planning and aproving of training have to return.Once again , the units problems are my problems . No more heck care attitude .
*I've got to see some people which I am not particularly keen on meeting , especially those who wish to be attached to hq.( for some sort of leadership appointment or whatever)
*more crazy parents that complain so much. ( why dont they just pull their kids out of NCC since its so "suffering"

2004-09-09T07:34:00.000+08:00

Le-Serie-05.blogspot.com
ignore message below

2004-09-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

this blog has been discontinued due to problems:
Meet the new and impoved one :
Jester-farm.blogspot.com

2004-09-08T19:50:00.000+08:00

http://photos1.blogger.com/img/245/1246/1024/fearof.jpg
something i spent all morning doing , but hello couldnt post

i was afraid of failure

2004-09-08T09:15:00.000+08:00

i was always afraid of failure..... i was always afraid of failure

2004-09-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

Bygones , will NEVER be bygones.
I use to have a tuition teacher , a certain Ong from the Artillery unit if im not mistaken. He was a plumb short moustached guy. Highly sociable but highly vengeful. I remember "pangseh-ing" him on several occasions . When i was still a willful sec 3 student . Well , it kinda backfired . he pangseh-ed me during my SA2 , causing my near retaining experience. From then on ... i never changed my math tuitiors timeslot , NEVER .

Im just feeling a little bored .AFTER A MATH AND HUMANITIES FILLED DAY. damn!

2004-09-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

Weeee~
I discovered loads about my camera today. especially one downpoint . the maximum time the shutter can stay open is 4 seconds , four miserable seconds. BAH! I did get one good car shot though , whith that miserable four seconds. :D

I really need to get my mind off the camera and onto the books , ireallyneedtogetmyhandsonthef828....

2004-09-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

A Feral Grin
Im grinning , end to end.
I can't stand it anymore. Well , the thought of "neighborhood school students thinking of scoring 6 points , then claiming its easy ." Well , just wait and see, who has the last laugh.
Im losing my judiciousness , bit , by bit.
A special thank you to the children today :D
Summary of today.
Went to study at the airport . The viewing mall to be precise . During the late morning , the place was a place of peace , everybody there looked as though they were in deep thought. Why? there were no kids . I hated when the kids made unnecessary noises. naturally , children emit noise , so it didn't really matter. However one slightly "older" child had to play with his stupid handphone , testing his stupid ringtones .... beep beep , stupid kid.
Children made my day what it was , I spent the last half-hour at the viewing mall photographing children, Im no paedophile. Grandfathers explaining to their grandsons and exclaiming when the planes fly , lifting them way above their own heads despite their lack of vitality. I wanted to photograph an enderly couple ,but decided not to ruin their peanut outing.
Spring loaded for instant action.
Ive got the faultiest mechanism
my screws are all lose
when the need for "instant action" occurs
You will see the ultimate clockwork disaster.
No words will suffice to convey my sorrow.

2004-09-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

MY computer is throwing tantrums . The windows dont open until after 2 minutes. which means you have to plan ahead and live 2 minutes into the future . This Message is typed about 2 minutes ago.

After becoming an Ex marist :
There will be
no more Denis Koh
No more wearing of a stupid outift
No more irritating kids running around , screaming their heads off
No more seeing my old friends on a daily basis
no more ammonia time!
no more self-created practical exams
no more class room fencing matches with metre rules
no more overloading of capacitors
no more creating electro-magnets
no more melting of wires
no more neutralizing of chemicals
no more rich smell of ammonia , and sulfur dioxide
no more G4 ( this is really saddening)

Im really going to miss being a marist ( for awhile)

2004-09-02T15:33:00.000+08:00

Choosing my confessions.
Hear me ,
I tell the truth,
to be explicit ,
part of it .
I put up a facade,
a false smile.
Its not the best ,
just make do with it .

My essay is ruined . Discussive essays are fun to write , until you realized you finished half the word limit , without even eleborating on the negative sides. "how fun" damn!

2004-09-01T09:51:00.000+08:00

Effects of nostalgia,

In full blow.

Its teachers day.
Goals for teachers day:
*Phy Tys 2002.
*Add math CHS paper
*Emath The borrowed Orange Stack of papers

How typical.

Strangely , some people can't even be bothered to unlock their caps lock when typing. For an average HP keyboard( the one im using ) , the caps lock is just 0.5cm away from the closest alphabet (which is A). By pushing that button off , you could easily turn a "HEY HOW ARE YOU DOING , I KNOW IM TALKING LIKE A STUPID IDIOT ",into a more simple and pleasant greeting . Sheesh! people are really getting lazier . im getting lazier. im not pressing the shift and the caps lock now. im going to be re incarnated as a sloth.
Last Saturday , Kenneth Survived on two muslee bars . Strangely , metabolism is at a all time low , Kenneth can now save time from eating and do more mugging.
The tale of two little kids , leaving behind a trail of bread crumbs , so that they can find their way back. The problem was , every other two little kids was doing the same thing , now what can they do.

The shapes of water.
So infinite .
So unpredictable.
Why let the romance bleed away... ...

2004-08-31T17:58:00.000+08:00

When will this EVER end.
Somebody tell me , when will this end . When will G4's unbeaten streak at braddel heights EVER end. The goals flew into the opposition , and they didn't know what hit them. The goals , nicely provided by Denny Tan and Edmund Chen. Supported by the untimate ball holder Ah Loong San and Elson Tham. Well , I didn't really contribute much to the game , except for one long throw which Denny converted into the "strangest goal " ive ever seen. He just turned and the ball flew straight into the net . Keeper was dumbfounded , and rooted to the ground. The game wouldn't have been much of a difference without me anyway. I only saved about 3 goals , which would only make the score line 9-4.

Final Score : G4:9
Gabrielites:1

Anyway , I didn't Visit the primary school . Sure brings back terrible memmories. Well , thats just the excuse. My teachers are all gone , not a single teacher that thought me for English , Math , Science is left , even the savior for my chinese during PSLE is now gone. I remember she used to paste stars all round the class . "these stars are for you all to pluck from the sky" says in mandrin(direct translation , not very gramatically correct).

2004-08-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

System Overload.

After not ranting for ages , Kenneth has returned into the nonsense spewing individual that he was meant to be , once in awhile. I can't believe how moronic some people can be in school. Strangely , I do recall doing all of the incidences. Yes , When I was a kid that is .

Point one .

Some people just cant keep their mouths shut for two short periods of math. They just had to go on talking and talking . Well , these idiots remind me of the terror twins that live across the road . With no form of vocal control , shouting at the top of their voices today . Above that , the leader of the moronic clique just watched "some show" where the individual abstained from talking about sex , and "doing it " for fourty days. He just couldn't believe it and he decided to "admire" this guy. Well , think again moron! Its a show , and further more its just a short period of fourty days. I remember doing similar things , idolizing cartoons when i was 8? To top things off , i met that moron walking down the stairs saying , "now on im not going to talk about sex for fourty days" . Wow , im impressed by your determination , well , not your "gung-ho" attitude , lets see how long you'll last you pea-brained simpleton. Well I shouldnt be mentioning names , however I do have a theory why this FOOL behaves in such a fashion. He hit his head on command from a teacher . That fool listened to the teacher and hit his head on the notice board . Rated fool Level:********************* out of 5 stars.

Point 2.

Another show off of determination. Well this time from a person who is capable of achieving even greater heights and a contemplative person in class , whom is often in deep thought . Hey "(name of above fool) lets start with 60day and nights of non stop studying . Yea like that'll every work , Ill stand by the side and sneer when you fianally run out of steam on the 2nd week.We'll see if you really can last 60 days without proper sleep.

Point 3.

Mr. Mathematics Genius couldnt stop boasting on his abilities in mathematics. "i want you to know the NCR formula , if you dont know , youre ****ed up . Hur hur , why am i not impressed . ( yea once is fine , but if repeated like 6 times in 2 days ) yea it gets irritating , VERY irritating .

Man that felt ALOt better , ranting does clear the mind , now , onward Kenneth Onward to the afternoon (nap) or (mugging session)~!!!

I cant seem to score A1 for chem. Im having more frequent mental blocks . I just screwed up another paper , year 2000. 69.5 should i be sad , or should i be happy .

1844hrs (upadate).

Yipee , i got my camera back for the week , can take pictures for teachers day , look out for the latest series of photograhphs!

As someone used to say , More occasional brain fart.

2004-08-29T09:17:00.000+08:00

Bare-foot Aggression.
Its another typical sunday. However , this time , IM GOING TO BORDERS! Time to get that $80 dollar Digital photographers book. ( although it does burn holes in pockets)
Typical Sunday :
*Eats Lor Mee in the morning ( abt 9-10)
*Studies for about 1 hr
*Watches one piece ( cartoons Yipee!)
*usually say he wants to study more , ends up watching more cartoons)
*lies down on the sofa(about one hour)
*Time is now about 2 ( summons brother for a soccer game)
*time now is 4( tries to study)
*time now is 5 takes a bath
*its the evening already , no mood to study.
*watches TV until 9
*Sleeps

Yipee, the typical counch potato regime

1714 hrs:
Everything going according to schedule . Note to self: Never play soccer again bare footed . (the healing skin tore.)
Back to mugging .( books are my friends , i love my books )

2004-08-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

in out!

2004-08-28T20:29:00.000+08:00

MUGGER Mugger Day~
Went to burger king to study the second time in 2 days . This time , with a different group or rather a certain person. Well , basically , the whole day was spent mugging from 1327hrs to 1943hrs. Well , i can safely say i said less than 200 words during the 6 hour period of time . Sadly , i couldn't really help in anyway , i was better off as a rock , than a person. However a BIG THANK YOU ,to her , i must say , if i hadn't gone to study , i would have been potatoing through out the whole day , passing hour by hour , minute by minute as a potato. Time to go mug on social studies , and physics which im trying to like .

Contradicting time!!!

Now you can hang my brain out to dry , im all out of brain juice , so its useless now .

Cheerio,
Kenneth ( actually i need not put this crap down cuz the blog does it for me)

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
End , she doesnt have a broken smile but.
ill ask her if she wants to stay awhile

2004-08-27T17:23:00.000+08:00

Cross-Dressing
On the 27th of August 2004 , any secondary 4 pupil that approached any 4G member had only one thing on their minds , stated above . Ill let you all figure out yourselves.

"see you on the other side :D"

I seriously need to start studying . Im not a genius. Im not a genius . I am a fool. Having mind blocks on a daily basis isn't a good feeling either . Damn I need to mug I need to mug.

Add on 2122 hrs:
Watching the church chior from afar kind of gives a soothing effect ( although i dont understand a bit of their singing .)I need to talk about something else other than mugging . Its getting on everybodies nerves!

2004-08-26T15:06:00.000+08:00

Whats on Kenneths Mind,
Gangster boss (group 1) : Trash the place!!
*group of gangsters start trashing up Kenneths brain.*
Gangster boss( group 1) : next time , you better listen up!
*group 1 leaves*
*Moments later , group 2 arrives*
Gangster boss ( Group 2) : Trash the place!!
Henchmen : The place is already trashed up boss , what to do?
Gangster boss ( group 2 ) *hesitates for a second* : Just trash it up!
*henchmen starts walking gently over the rubble , kicking everything standing over*
*group 2 leaves*

Ugh~ internal brain wars dont really feel that good.
New things today :
*Donnovan has a bigger hole than elson ( loser)
*WenJun made a bigger impact on the ice cream dude than elson( loser )

Im just kidding , i still owe Elson 3 bux DAMN...

2133hrs (update):
Have you ever felt that you're losing control of yourself? Everything suddenly seems clockwork , a small fragment off the pattern then you rant and rave like some insane individual lacking control of the brain. How does it feel living a clockwork life ? why do people live clockwork lives , why do i live in a clockwork life?

Some questions on youseld , even you can't answer .

Tick...tick...tick...tick...*RINGGGGGGG* youre dead , wake up you sleeping fool.

2004-08-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

remade!

2004-08-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

STUDY CAMP(Chem)
Got stuck in the worst "shower" ( as reported by the weather station) Hence study camp.(which explains why school ended at 1630hrs on the 28th of August 2004) Kenneth Tan has now officially declared "red-alert" for the condition of his mathematics skills . Its almost beyond hope for Kenneth to salvage his mathematics , therefore the only course of action he can take is to so called "practice" the skills of mathematics.
Kenneth Tan today,
finished Chem 1999 paper 2
finished ACS(i) Amath Prelim paper 1
finished Prooving worksheet(after rubbing the god of maths tummy)
finished Venice Source Based questions
was fiddling with html , hence the modified version of the layout.
IS NOW STONING

2004-08-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

SPELL BOUND.
like W T F mate , whats that . perhaps ive reclused myself too long from the outside world . My school just booked an entire cinema to play "spellbound" and whats that? , I ve never even heard of that movie . Ugh~. And on top of that , a recuring number 67.5 for chemistry has occured 4 times!:
*Chem 2003 paper 1 .
*Chem 2002 Paper 1
*Chem 2002 Paper 2
*Anderson Prelims 1/2

Damn. Am i cursed or what?. Please break this chain.

2004-08-23T20:51:00.000+08:00

GEE-FOUR.BLOGSPOT.COM

The deadly brew of stupidity.

2004-08-23T16:04:00.000+08:00

The DEADLY BREW OF STUPIDITY
Have you EVER seen anyone stare blankly into the front of the class , not knowing everything for the entire day ? Yea , ive seen somebody that Idiotic. To top things off , that individual has a face which already explains why he is like that . Who else ? You'll see him in the first four ingredients of stupidity. Yea which im always on the top. looks like ive got a competitor. On guard!

2004-08-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

Special thanks to denny tan for this magnificient layout :d
Test....

running away , behind closed doors.

2004-08-22T11:35:00.000+08:00

Homework , homework , homework. UH Kenneth Tan awoke and tried to do some things normally for once . Nothing can get his puny mind off the homework . Look below.

A-MATH~~*floating about*

~CHEMISTRY*vibrates*~

PHYSICS~(STUPID SUBJECT)

E-MATH!~~ ahhhhh

Which explains why Kenneth cant do anything today! *starts clubbing head *

Ugh~ I confess:Kenneth Tan has a weak mind.

happy birthday you four!

2004-08-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

4 birthdays on one day? is that a coincidence or what!? how did this happen?
You just need four childbirths in one day. There we go . That explains it all , my Female Roboski Hamster , just give birth , everbody , take a cigar!

:D happy happy happy~ C:

pout

2004-08-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

Exactly the opposite of what im doing . I feel kinda proud .:d
I finished :
Chem paper 1 ( nov 2003)
Chem paper 2 ( Nov 2000)
In one morning. I have this feeling im going to do about 4 more full papers today . muahhahahahahahaha. Muggersaurus Rex!

reborn

2004-08-20T17:14:00.000+08:00

Note: this is the second time I am writing this .

Is there a way to turn back time ?
I'd Do anything for that.
Somehow , when you draw a graph of happiness against time,
You always get a negative gradient .
Why is that so?
I miss being a Kid.
It seems like the half life curve of happiness has just begun.

Writing with my left hand , makes me feel like a kid . Not having control of anything , not even something as simple as a pen. The hand writings mess, It isn't neat , but its legible . If its the last thing I'd do , Im going to master this skill. Im getting a new handwriting , Im getting a new life.

Weeeee ARE the Champions~
Somethings really wrong , either the teams at braddel height are really lousy , or we're just damned lucky. Apparently , the first option should be struck off.
Denny Tan scored a HAT TRICK today , whoa * claps* The opposing keeper couldnt keep his opponents keeper quiet . Well too bad dude . I scored on you , then you left . HA HA HA HA ~.

New series of photographs soon to be out , mostly on today , the storm , question to all . How can I post videos on the net ?

Thanks for the wonderful day . Do check your mailbox , it should be there by tomorrow. :D ( note they are a bit shaky at the oasis)

2004-08-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

yea!! hes still faster than my brain

2004-08-19T18:05:00.000+08:00

lost at sea.....

exceptionally .

2004-08-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

This is one of those days , Kenneth Feels exceptionally chirpy.
Point one :
*English oral was damn fun , would do that again if i had the chance . :D

How better can today get :D ...

The labanda( is that how you spell that) is a really catchy song , thanks to the blue quayle . na na na na , nanananananananana~. na na na na na na na nana na na, na na , nanananana, na na na ~

Definately alot better . :D Time to sleep late like crazy!!
Ps: Thanks for the much needed motivation :D *chows down confetti thrown*
cant help but to feel like "golden toad chase phoenix "
pr rather , rotting toad chase phoenix

the new couch.

2004-08-18T16:15:00.000+08:00

Black , white , velvet and leather . Muh new couch ! My mums taste is getting better .

Well , the english orals are coming tomorrow , lets just get the orals over and done with so that I dont have to worry anymore . And about the language known as chinese , Im going to tackle that problem one last time . Im going to get a B .

Kenneth Tan just got :
*a new couch . ( not mine actually )
*12 double A batteries ( camera is back online )
*Some form of motivation. ( should be another short lived motivation)

for now check out the best site in the universe

1942hrs
The English language is more or less like the frankienstine monster , sewn up from different corpses and given life . However an integration of a certain language into the english language , made even the frankienstine monster look good . The integration of malay , by some "act beng" people . Well , the most common words of malay used by these people , macham ( which kind of sounds strange when used with english ) and the exclamation , alamak.

Its not that im being racist or anything , its just that these people are really irritating me . " blah blah blah... macham like ... blah blah blah . If im not wrong , macham means like . Therefore the sentence actually means blah blah bla ... like like ... blah blah blah , which in this context doenst make any sense . Isn't it easier to say like , rather than macham. ( macham is 2 syllables like is only one syllable you fool ) Besides that , macham makes the entire sentence sound like the individual doesn't really speak english , just trying his best to sew a couple of words together to make his point seen. Damn , I hate macham.

Next point.

Susilo fever is over , sadly . To my dismay , he is now losing 1-14. the other dude just has to lay one more well aimed shot . Thanks for the effort Susilo. ok he just lost . Thanks anyway Susilo. who valiantly fought , but fell in battle . :D

blurred.

2004-08-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

Well , after having a drink with my buddies , i couldnt really focus . All I saw of my surroundings , patches of blurs. "how did i make my way home " . I Roughly just traced the direction home . swaying side to side like a zombie.

uh~ i need help.

Motivation , what is that ?
A force that drives one to carry on?
A force that pushes one far beyond the individuals limits ?
Or a burden . well never know .

I really dont know , *scratches head*

in my dream....

2004-08-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

I was standing right beside you ... ...

My life has become SO perfect , I dont know why , im in the highest of spirits , and i really dont know why ? Perhaps i get a little hyper after pissing people off. ALOT of them.
People pissed off today :
Guys waiting behind me at the water cooler
Commar. I went crazy making a big fuss my my damned class wasnt locked during recess and jumped up and down exclaiming : if something gets lost , whose fault is it !? YOURS !!! YOURS!!! ARGH... then ran up and down the cooridor .

Perhaps its because "I TOPPED THE TABLES FOR THE FANTASY LEAGUE FOR MY GROUP" just kidding .

It must be her. :D

back from exile.

2004-08-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

After slightly more than 24 hours away from the computer , many things i have learnt through out ,my short 1 day holiday. After being so sick of my own pathetic existence , I feel so refreshed , so rejuvenated. Hmm here are some things I have learnt :
*Blythes cost a bomb. ( maybe not so much of a bomb)
*I have alot of spare time , outside the computer.
*Sabaiter technique . From an 80 dollar book .

Comparing my brother and myself , it has shown the changes made to the national cadet corps after the complete revamp of its entire syllibus . Sadly to say , few of these changes are benifitial to the cadets . There my brother was , whining that he doesnt want to go to a 2* Kayaking course organised my the unit . Why ? Oh cuz you get pumped after every training . Why ? Cuz they misbehave then we just get pumped together . Well whose fault is it anyway if you all misbehave then get punished , is that the specialists fault , or is it the pea-brained-moronic cadets fault that they got punished . Besides that , he stated that going on your own is better . without any reason . Yea go plan it yourself asshole , then dont try to get any subsidies from the corps .

I dont see what has really changed in our unit training style . perhaps the seniors are becoming too soft on the juniors . Somehow , the democratic way of running the unit seems to have an adverse effect . Cadets now complain about the tiniest details , whoa , ive got too much pt. Back then , we just did what ever the guy told us , no questions asked . Its sad really , to see the product of a "progressive" society.

Meanwhile , enjoy the national day pictures --> Moronstellahigh

Kenneth Tan Blogs off ------- For now.

2004-08-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt so sick of your bloody life , your life that has brought nothing but misery? The open wound during a game . One couldn't express how perfect the DAMNED timing of that could happen . Fortunately for some , It doesn't hurt , they fell nothing , until the game ends . The innocent pearls of perspiration dripping into the injury . Then it comes back to haunt you , and it pains .

Ever felt so regretful , you just want to wind the clock backwards ? Should have ? could have? Would have? Running through you mind like some maniacal fool ripping through your failing nervous system . Tearing apart tissue , by tissue . cell by cell , and all you could do , stare blankly at the immenent departure of whats left of your sanity.

I am SO sick of being the fool in everybodies life . Im SO sick of spinning out of control on an easy downhill run . Strangely , all i feel , is anger . Anger about myself not living up to the expectations of myself . Now , it looks like im the one having trouble differentiating between goals and reality . What kind of fool could try to save others while drowning in his own pool of blood . Perhaps a really , really dumb one .

I need time , I need alot of that , im running out of that by the seconds . The mind is willing , the flesh , weak . festering with past wounds . It is eating you from the inside. I need time , to clear my mind , to really sort things over . Therefore , im taking a holiday .

Well , ill be back sooner than you all will notice . Im taking a holiday from my life , im getting a new one . A better one .

It will be unlikely that ill be online for the next two to three days . Im so tired of my life . All i wish for , strength to perservere . Its an integral part of everybodies life , but mine .

Good bye for now .
Cheerio, *carries on eating the left over confetti.*
Kenneth

Ps: I might just snap any time now.... beware . Im so sorry.

1918hrs , Kenneth Tan last seen online , lets hope you got a distinction on that oral ok ? If you did mess up , its alright . Im sure you can do alot better in your main papers
cheerio ,
Kenneth

its just like black and white.

2004-08-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

Some people obviously don't know the difference between goals and reality . Whining about their already well off results like nobodies business. Its not that im not happy with that , its just that , its GETTING VERY IRRITATING.

Drama class today :
Roy Tan cried for a B3, shut your face fool . its well enough.

Well , im quite satisfied with my mere pass from Chinese . Never thought it was possible , not it has spurred me to work even harder for the O levels , im going to get a B4 for my chinese , well , dont be too happy yet ;D.

I've been to all the familliar places
I've been running like a sentence never begun.
I've been looking for a way to let you know .
I've got nothing left to fill your spaces .

The box of perpetual darkness.

2004-08-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

Whats in it ?
more than 9 months of papers .
What i did?
Paper , chuck , paper , chuck.
What i did today?
Paper , sort , paper sort .
How it felt like ?
dusty?

Mood accomplished!

2004-08-10T17:05:00.001+08:00

Wheres the path to her heart , somebody please tell me ( rejoice , its back)

2004-08-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

Everybody has skeletons in their closets , the difference , how many.

2004-08-10T14:51:00.000+08:00

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I hate mugging ! Well note:

Kenneth Tan is still trying to figure out illustrator

Kenneth Tan is still trying to figure out photoshop

Kenneth Tan now officially has no life .

Have you every wanted something so much , you could kill . Have you tried desperarely reaching for your dropped candy on the other side of the fence ?

Surrounding pictures (latest series)

flip flop.

2004-08-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

Have you seen bird shit . Yea , thats what the NDP fireworks looked like . Well , talk about a joyous occasion celebrating 39 years of nation building . The photographers at the opposite bank of the Kallang River Jeered at the poor display of fireworks. On top of that , I wasn't too lucky. I spent all my film on the first wave of fire works . Then the second wave came . My mouth was left dangling , as i wasted a completely good change . OH well , too bad ...

There after , I took my friends car home . The car lept , from traffic jam to trafic jam , BUTT ACHE! Abgrah!

Things to do for national day.

2004-08-09T08:59:00.000+08:00

Roys plan for national day : mug , mug ,mug , mug , mug , ,mug.
Roys things to do today:
1) take a VERY long bath
2) mug
3) mug
4) mug
5) mug

Kenneth Tans Plan for national day : mug , mug ,mug , shoot , shoot , shoot
1) mug
2) meet dude at swimming club
3) go to the kallang river
4) shoot shoot and shoot more photos.

Well , cant wait to try out an slr .... whoa...

Patriotism What a load of ..(II)

2004-08-08T08:20:00.000+08:00

Television stations , Radio stations , news papers and even those you know are making a big "hoo ha" about it . Yes its the nations birthday , 39 years of nation building , balh blah . With the song being played over , and over and over , and over , this is home truely , it makes one think , why is this home truely.

To think of it , a home is
home ( P ) Pronunciation Key (hm)n.
A place where one lives; a residence.
The physical structure within which one lives, such as a house or apartment.
A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household.
An environment offering security and happiness.
A valued place regarded as a refuge or place of origin.
The place, such as a country or town, where one was born or has lived for a long period.
The native habitat, as of a plant or animal.
The place where something is discovered, founded, developed, or promoted; a source.
A headquarters; a home base.
Baseball. Home plate.
Games. Home base.
An institution where people are cared for: a home for the elderly.
Computer Science.
The starting position of the cursor on a text-based computer display, usually in the upper left corner of the screen.
A starting position within a computer application, such as the beginning of a line, file, or screen or the top of a chart or list.
(part of long list copied from Dictionary.com)

To one , home might be the place where one spends the most time . ie , growing up . Singapore yields a great ammount of memories to me . Sadly , I can't say all of them are pleasant . Being mentally tortured during the primary school days have since ,mutilated a young childs mind to what he is today , the abomination you see before you , me .

The begining of the end (I)
One fine day , explicitly on January the Second , 1996 , A young boy innocently travelled to school . It was the first day of his primary school life. Excited about the events that surrounded him , the chirpy little kid entered the classroom , his soon to be hell. The class library was filled with books that facinated him. At that time , he was extremely interested in dinosaurs. There was this particular book . It had pictures of dinosaurs , well painted , extremely colourful and the best thing was it was a story of a kid , that visited a dinosaur zoo. He sat there quietly , not knowing that he was out of place , when others were at their desks. When a horrible force yanked him from his seat .
"you there , what do you think youre doing ? im not a lenient teacher you know!? "
The boy didnt know the meaning of lenient , therefore he innocently asked .
With brute strength , he was forced back into his seat , without an explaination .From then on, his mind was corrupted , with fear . That teacher was Mrs. Lim . He would swear she was satanic or something but she kept acting holy at the same time . Her life was a scene of "pre disciplinary fun" . She seems to take particular glee in watching the young little kids suffer , them make them suffer more . Once , she caught one of his friends talking in class. She yanked his hair , then banged it on the black board . Thereafter , instead of complaining about the hot headed disciplinarian, the bitch went to complain about him distrupting class. "double punishment "
If you're wondering , Mrs lim was a pint sized woman. She is currently ALOT shorter that that little lad now , but at that time . she had a total monopoly of the class's well being .

Will continue later.. ...

the standard issue

2004-08-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

"this is the new standard issue to the fashion squad , the nokia 7610. The badly dressed are going down" Who do this guys think they are. They're clearly discriminating against the poorer people . Lets see , so youre not well dressed if you lack a nokia 7610 phone? So clearly , more than half the world is going down . Personally , I feel that such a comment is highly insensitive . Not everybody can afford such a phone during a period of crisis , such as the economic problem the world is facing now. That odd shaped phone makes me sick. The deisgner of that phone , seems to have broken the bad taste barrier . Unlike most other nokia phones , that phone boasts a mega pixel camera and 4X zoom . Whats the point of integrating a camera into a phone .

This brings me to my next point . During the English period 2 days ago , I was rebutted by my english teacher . We were asked to do an asignment on " if i were the education minister , how would i change the education system " the standard answers were given , less stress , later reporting time , and the common stuff . There was one point that my group brought up that was highly controversial. The abolishing of wearing uniforms to school . We stated that the advantages were students would be comfortable in their own attire and the learning curve would be alot smoother. Sounds perfect ? Nope . "yea then you'll see a kid dressed in his guicci and another in his rags " Get the groove? Students would be more interested to dress up and look their bess rather than concentrate in school . "the badly dressed are going down " Yea in that case , all students in uniform are going down. Both points makes sense , its just that the second one made more sense .

the not-so-fool-proofed-plan

2004-08-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

Well , after consulting my mother on the Ice Cream Idea , she spotted many flaws , MANY. refridgeration being the main problem. The Sales life of ice cream is short . It can only be mantained by the constant low temperatures of a fridge. Thinking of this , I might need to rent a refridgeration unit , which would cost EXTRA money. She said my style was highly unethical , there was no QC , all i cared about was the profit . Well , I cannot totally disagree with her ... Looks like its back to the Drawing board...

Looks like business isn't as easy as it seems.

with that money , im definately going to buy her a meal :D

silence... within

2004-08-07T08:02:00.000+08:00

2 seperate entities side by side . One woke up , turned on the radio , it awoke the other . The first one just walked past the awoken entity , as if he didn't exist . He did his usual stuff in the toilet , looked out of the door. There he was looking straight on at him . He looked back without saying a word , then left the room . Eventhough they didn't exchange a word ,the two entities knew exactly what the other was thinking.

The entity wondered . The entity feels really lucky . His genetically connected other entity seems to have grown quite a bit . In their youth , the two were constantly at war . The environment , never peaceful . Day by day exchanging blows , biting each other . There was no peace , all they cared about was how to make the other suffer more . Be it through physical pain , or causing the other to be in trouble by other means , all could be achieved.

Now , the two entities are at peace . There is harmony , there is hope . The workload is shared amongst 2 individuals . Strangely enough , as time passed , the fighting died down . No more exchanging of blows , no more physical encounters . Perhaps just the occasional verbal war , nothing more. The younger entity has matured . He now seems to be able to understand complex situations easier . No more Self-centered-mr-puberty-is-a-big-deal. Glad that the younger entity can now think logically , the entity now worries less . The younger entity somewhat reminds the entity of himself at that age , however less malicious.

The younger entity came down , they two exchanged words , "what!?" :D

Yea if you're wondering the younger entity is my brother .

Its saddening to see my unit in a state of war . Unlike my brother an me , the ASM and the CSM are constantly at war . It makes one wonder , is it worth fighting for ? Your beloved possession . All you have worked and strived to paint , to cultivate . Ruined in the hands of others . One just wants the fame and glory of wearing a rank ,a rank not earned , a rank not truely his . He wants the fame , the honour of being parade commander . The other , just wants the same . Hence the two self centered fools started a internal war . Why must good things come to an end. I want to scream " Let this feeling never end " Its like screaming in a vaccum , you die eventually , but still nobody hears you .

I love the feeling of agony ,
the agony of wathing one enjoy,
while you suffer .
Pain is a friend ,
it will kill the other in time,
but not me , i hope.
Its a two sided blade ,
wielded correctly ,
IT will kill .
lacking in skill ,
It still will kill ,
you instead.

Four legs of the table...

2004-08-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

There is hope ... There is .... Strangely enough , I didn't fall asleep during Enrichment programme . I was Energetic... My blood , pulsating with ENERGY . I had enough concentration to last for the final periods of the day ... And managed to finish my SCGS Emath paper one . And even stranger ... I managed to acctually score 71.4 % There is hope... one more thing ...
I was wearing my Dogtag...
In Le Unbeatables Le Third ... I was also wearing my dogtag until the damned limping Discipline master threatened to confiscate my precious . My end ... did bring new life after all...

New ideas Look out for them:
*adapted from seeing double... ( murder of onseself.)
*New series of photograhs mostly based on my surroundings ...

Somethings seem to keep me going ... it must be her ... it must be...

2004-08-04T19:53:00.000+08:00

MY BLOGGER BOT IS DOWN... mayDAY ... may day!!!.... there might be a lack of visual aids for the blog....

the moons going to cut your ear off.

2004-08-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

Why does homework pile up when you leave them in a corner. whay cant they just dissapear like some subliming piece of crap ... why.... i wonder ...

I just helped my brother with his home econs preperation for his practical... Hey if Kenneth Can cook so can you. Kenneth Tan cooked up a disaster with curry that tasted real salty... hmmm... Kenneth Tan really isnt cut out for cooking...

What bleeds , red , white , red , white?

2004-08-03T14:57:00.000+08:00

LE UNBEATABLES LE THIRD

As Denny Tan would call it , Tian Xia Wu Di.Soccer was a bomb today! Ive never played so well , IN AGES! Naturally , my crazy friends could defend most of the shots , and i did nothing most of the time heeh heeh ... Mostly , i was slacking ... Then they had to settle the game through a penalty shoot out . Thanks to Jerald Tang whom scored a magnificent shot . hahahahZ ...Strangely , I saved 2/2 of the penalties on me ."Extremely rare" muahahahhaZ G4 unbeaten again on one day!

All the teachers seem to be giving up on us ... well... how sad... :(

Well , thats just too bad for the rest of them who didn't listen in the start... well i was quite shocked when mr.low exclaimed : " go take the god damned 'o' levels yourself then!" Well everybody has a limit , looks like we just broken the threshold....

Update.. Damn! spotted another mugger neighbour . That really makes me feel really Guilty to sleep .. i have to mug ... I have to mug ... I have to mug... i have to be a roy tan! *Kabish* what am I saying ! I have to mug! But I dont have to be a Roy Tan . Roy Tan has no social life . He doesnt even have a life . Unless you consider mugging as a lifestyle ... perhaps ... you can consider him an "undead" being ... mugging 24/7 , why am i not amazed . He can memorise EVERY thing but the oral dates which i took 3 seconds to memorise 19 Aug 2004 . He took 1 hr , got scolded by a teacher named chia kok . And still fails to remember . In a fit of anger , the rumbling smelly freak blurted a series of vulgarities... wow.

This time round , Kenneth Is not going to die during the exams... he is going to die before the exams or die trying .... However ... he might just adopt the ZAI mindset developed by the genius . The genius of the achedamic world . Denny Tan...

AIYAH!.... NEVERMIND LAH!

O levels fail how ?.......

Aiyah NEVERMIND LAH!

Prelims screw up how?

Aiyah NEVERMIND LAH!

Denny tan if you're reading this , its not an insult ... :D Im just kidding ...

A mood of accomplishment .... i uploaded 39 picutures in 1 hr... faster than the stupid geocities page builder which took me 1 hr to upload 9 pics... insane...

Photos.....

POP PHOTOs

And , if youre still wondering what bleeds red , white, red , white? .... Honestly i dont know ... my guess is Benidict Chen... having a new addiction to liquid paper?

2004-08-02T20:46:00.000+08:00

The band of brothers , together , FOREVER

2004-08-02T18:15:00.000+08:00

Flawless.... i must add....

er nasal cavity that kills

2004-08-02T15:41:00.000+08:00

Well , the entire day was ruined , RUINED . Well , that damned nose kept dripping like a spoilt tap ... Oh look some homework ... drip drip drip ... oh look some paper mache ! Oh look chem practical... drip drip drip ..... white PPt. Insoluble in excess ( ppt was supposed to be soluble ) That point , I over emphasized that point .

Well ... Just got 150 + photos from my friend ... SYF and Some other day , dont know what day ... Kranji war memorial , thats it!.... Time to begin uploading . Soon , The POP pictures muahahaZ

The day always improves as it approaches the night ... it does... now im in the mood to work... the mood to actually do something productive...

Played soccer as an outfield player for the first time in ages , whoa... looks like im in need of serious training , deproved quite abit :P sadly....

Well , One should learn to love the environment that one is in .For my bloody case its maris Stella High School . Well , to console myself , Maris Stella is a SAP school , not to mention , its the last of all the sap schools in singapore . YEA! well at least WE the autonomous KIDS still try desperately to act like what we are supposed to be . Thank you brother anthony for being such an (imbecillic fool that rants about FAAACILITIES and being autonomous) intelligent leader whom never fails to give proper advice when needed. Unlike other single gender schools such as CEDAR Girls , maris Stella has no pregnancy rate . You see.... one day you might see a "marist Sister" pregnant .. yea , our school is going to be over run by transexuals. GOD why did you create them ...

SYF GOH PHOTOS

The aftermath.

2004-08-01T15:23:00.000+08:00

What do you get from an entire night of partying , Non stop chatting , eating and Lanning . Plus a dose of wrestling ? You get the zombie that has become me today . Ugh~. Sleep , if theres something I need more than money , it'll be sleep .I need It
desperately , I need it now , I want to sleep , my mind tells me not to . I just really love contradicting myself.

4 years of maddness , ended in an instant . That flying beret . Everything was silent . I could hear no cheers , I couldnt hear myeself , the scene was comparable to a gala premiere of the worst movie ever . The cheers fell on deaf ears .... ...

Ugh~ after not shaving for ages , I awoke from my nap... ... shaved ... got a sore upper lip.... uh~....

Now Suffering From:
*SORE THROAT
*A bloody HEADACHE AGAIN(brain seems to be growing)
*The effects from lack of SLeep.
*A runny nose...

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Bleeding the Singaporean Way.

2004-08-01T09:28:00.000+08:00

Ever been to an All-you-can-eat buffet? Then if yes , I assume you've seen the typical Singaporean , with his "kiasu" ways of life . Hoarding stacks , even piles of food onto his already laden plate . Then slowly going back to a seat to enjoy the fruits of his labour . How much does it Piss the person behind if all the fried Ebi was swiped away by the person in front of you .Last time I was at one of these , I saw some japanese tourists behind me , with heads shaking at some oversized woman swiping all the ebi on the dish.

Seen tourists with a face so astonished , they look like they'd just seen an alien . "blabbers in singlish" , "I dont get a word you are saying " , replied the tourist. With a language blended with at least four different languages , its not supprising to see tourists not understand the local accent . Singaporeans tend to have a "rojak" mentality everything just blend together , then consume .

Did you know that Singaporeans cant live one day without Chilli . Most to be precise. Most Singaporeans add chilli to everything (sometimes that might include me) Chilli crabs ect ect ... chilli chin chow , chilli ice kachang , chilli juice , you name it . Its the spice that fuels their life . Everythings too plain for them , unless with chilli .Everythings not good enough for them , thus they complain . They rant and complain about everything , be it the governing system , or anything else that doesnt go their way.

Being one of the most patient nations in the world , Singaporeans have adapted the art of standing still in a line . Its called queueing . The national passtime . Where do you not see queueing , queueing for free gifts , queueing for food , queueing to exit the building , queueing to enter the building , queueing to queue. Everywhere you go , you will see queueing . Even the national religion 4D requires some queueing .

Well , looks like Singapore isn't the perfect place in the eyes for tourists , But thats they place I grew up , thats how we are , Its our culture , Its in our blood , be gone if you feel its offending .

did we make a mess?

2004-07-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

Over 400 photos taken .
Over 100 vulgarities .
Over 10L of liquid (water and drinks) splashed
Over 4 cadets raped .

Appearantly , there was magic in the air , old hatreds faded away , just for the moment .

Well , more or less , thats my pop . When the parade commenced , I didnt even know that was the original . I thought it was still a rehersal . I wanted It to be a rehersal , i wanted to run away from the truth . Not possible , it was already at my doorstep , the day I officially step down , and my successor takes over . Through out the entire parade , everybodys mood was rather emotional . I on the other hand , silently crying to myself at the back , I couldnt hold back my tears .

During my speach , I decided to give my buds a parting present , a reduction by 3/4 of the speach . I didnt want them to suffer because of some speach . I just mentioned the special thanks ,and the memories that they should clearly remember .

*keuala kerhormatan , bersurai!*
Each step i took , one year of Ncc flashed before my eyes , turn check.lep. Right .Lep . Barracudas ! The berets were flung into the air , confetti floated about the berets . It was the grandest of the grandest POPs EVER!!! I immediately rushed for the cans , then flung them at my friends. Instead , I had the cans used back on me , my hair was white , i aged 3 decades in one second . when i turned around , i was met my mobs of splashing sparkling juice . Drenched , I was restrained , then striped !!! "raped" , many other part Ds suffered the same fate . I shall not mention who :D

After the POP , most of us went to eat at Taka . If you EVER see the pictures , the entire flight of stairs was lined with the Barracudas . Everybody travelled up the escallators with a second look at us , we enjoyed the attention . I ate a buddy meal , whaoz , i was bloated .There after we had a Lan gaming session at somerset .

Now , when do you ?
age 4 decades in a second
get your hair sprayed white
get your body covered in streamers
get to mess up their uniforms
get to strip them
get to scold vulgarities in the open
get a free gift from the ncc
get to kill your friends
get to go out with all your platoon mates

ALL in one day :D wow!
The best day ever . Photos to be up REAL soon :D

fun notes:
UDI : wore landyards over their necks
My landyard came through my fly .

I wish she had been there , I really wished . Well , I hope she did enjoy her own version of the ROD :D

Kenneth Tan now Reports to himself!

2004-07-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

7.00 hrs left to POP:
*doing up my speach.
Well , the years of my life dashing past , eager anticipation Versus the feeling of emptiness against each other. :D

Its the day already? boy was that fast..... ....

The gingerbread man! "gingie!"

2004-07-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

Being in a catholic school , their religion is forced upon you . Its not like you actually practice it , they make you practice it . The announcement this morning : " All catholic boys from sec 1 -sec4 GO down for practice . Well , i used to think that religion is practiced on own free will , not in this school.

And oh yea . The mass( pronounced mars) had a rather comic finish . Paper balls made from song sheets hurled at the apprentice main fuck( the head councillor) serves him right for being a fuck. During holy communion ( is that how you spell it ) the sec 4 catholics brawled their way out of the crowd. There was this fat guy , we didnt know he was a catholic until today. My friend casted a rather sacarstic comment , well , he was just hungry... : X .

Bah , time to shake the archbishops hand :D weeee..........

exactly 24 hours away from POP..... Anticipation ....
up points:
*no more parents compaining
*im no longer in the NCC , i can now break the code of conduct
*no more troublesome cadet's parents.
*no more doing of adminstrative crap
*no more reporting
*no more training on saturday
*no more foot drill
*no more PT
*no more troublesome parents
*no more complaining from my parents
*no more running around in a uniform
*no more senseless lectures
*no more shouting at idiots
*no more scolding the "semi autonomous " people
*no more responsibilites , the cadets can fall and die and its not my fault
*no more wearing of the uniform.
Yea looks happy?

one more ......................

Theres now so many things to fill up in my life , this has been my life , now my new one needs a little getting used to . sadly , im going to miss my unit.

And if you're some dweeb from part D reading this , and youre sqeening your little pathetic eyes , tomorrow , you have to catch me first , then you can mess me up , im the gingerbread man...SUCKERS!

The half life curve Vs the slots .

2004-07-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

Lets see , is happiness more like a half life nuclear decay graph ? , or perhaps it just looks like a CRO graph (nicely contributed by her). Well it might highly depend on the individual .
For example . The nuclear decay graph might have a really gentle gradient , which shows a lower half-life rate . Maybe even showing that the individual is generally happy or miserable most of the time , which in this case , would be totally impossible. No individual stays happy or miserable all the time..

The CRO graph on the other hand might be a more accurate representation of happiness. The individual might have ups and downs (the really negative ones) But , there isnt a fixed pattern to this kind of emotion.
Well , maybe its more like a CRO , except with a faulty time base , and a faulty Y plate deflector. Its just my point of view , a singular point of view.

I still don't understand why I fare badly for comprehension. When the question asks for something , perhaps i analyze too much . At a level where only whats on the surface matters , why wreck my already mutilated and mangled pea brain . "why did he decide to stop" ( passage states it was getting dark , some rocks in his way) well i picked the wrong poing ).

Nearing the POP ... a deadly cocktail of rebuting emotions with a bit of crap from the juniors to top it up (like a cherry) .

"why isnt the SRO updated " - directed to the ASM

"The CSM isnt in school"-Directed at the Ex-Csm& ASM

"So?"-directed back at the ASM

"we passed all the stuff to him already ." -Directed back at the Ex-Csm&Asm.

The conversation didnt make sense . why , he wasnt answering the questions .

Go ahead archbishop , lets shake hands ... ...

he goes left , she goes right... ...

2004-07-28T16:19:00.000+08:00

Why do days have to begin with a naggy old lady , sitting in the car . Everybodies listening to the music , and she has to rant about how to make pancakes . Stupid elder sister of my mother... ... bah! just go to work , and shut up.

Reclused from the society.
Not too long ago , maybe about 10 to about 5 years back . I knew this little kid . He wasn't the brightest of kids . . He had a strange facination. Perhaps a little too extreme for some individuals. He had a facination for exotic animals , as well as what we usually call "normal" pets.

Till date , he has kept counteless garden lizards , one pair which he has successfully bred in the past . One green iguanana . not to mention , a reasonable number of bugs , which included larger species of spiders. Perhaps one of the most amusing collections i've seen , even felt.

Unfortunately , he was a loner . Alone all of the time . He didn't really talk , he couldn't really express himself. During the old days , he would just wonder around the school compound , walking through mobs of boisterous and grostesque little kids , monitoring every individual expression. He said nothing , he did nothing , usually overlooking the bald soccer field .

1-2-3-4-5 Sergeant!
Next thing you know , It was the selection for the National Corps. He joined the same CCA as I Did . Before the selection , my other 2 friends and I drew up our "sungod" and prayed for rain . within an hour , dark clouds gathered above the dehydrated field. little droplets of water plumetted from the skies.

"now we do sit ups !" Exclaimed the man whom i knew as the Discipline master.

Reluctantly , the secondary one students got onto their backs and got into a ready position . With every decent , their backs accumilated more mud....

Although it was amusing , no results were taken down.

Eye to eye with the shortest guy , I wanted to laugh . Wow, hes in Ncc? Soon later , i decided to withdraw , i learnt that he was the CSM. Staring eye to eye, with the Csm. In the pouring rain .

Its nice to recall the roots . Its nice to know that you have an alter ego . An alter ego that you Dont want to hide.

On a nightly basis , Kenneth climbs to his perch. His perch measures 40cm by 2.5meters. One inch could mean plumeting. off three stories .
Kenneth Does alot of thinking on his perch.
Kenneth's Perch allows him to gaze at the stars.
Kenneth's Perch has a low average temperature at night.
I love my perch . Im afraid im going to lose it soon... ...
Its where I observe,
Its where I mug.
Why must i lose such a perfect place for two.
with such an open concept
whats there to stop the train of thought.

And if youre wondering , my perch is just a little block of concrete , attached to a wall , outside my window.

Its back.... NO!... ....

2004-07-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

They're back.
The voices in my head , they've returned .

2055hrs: Tuitor left Me to do my stuff.
2100hrs: Done , fait voices surfaced in my mind . "faint giggling , laughing"
2103hrs: Chanted , "lets leave"
2105hrs:touched aircon controler.
2105:hrs : opened exit. , toilet door next to the exit , flung open , no windows open. "toilet was unused"
2106:hrs:Freaked me , sprinted off with my bike."voices fainter"

why did you all return? what have i done?

2004-07-27T19:00:00.000+08:00

At a lost of words .
A thousand words i want to say
Not one comes out right .
A mess ive made,
Why .
that speach impediment ,
that mental block .
I cant explain
I cant control
Its its a pair of nice shoes
made of concrete
In a cold dark marsh.

Bungee , with a thread.

2004-07-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

How dangerous can a little strip of road be . Yea on top of that , throw in some white stripes , and a law that says pedestrians can cross the road , and the bloody vehicle has to wait . Yea . Almost got run down by a bloody fool talking on a cell phone . Visibility low on bad weather perhaps ? Wrong , I was dressed in white , with a black backdrop. You've got to be blind to miss me . Never the less , International Sign language came into play!
The damned car U turned , back into the same bloody estate I live in (how nice) Time to take note of his bloody car number plate .

Its still nice to see the fun side of my class. 1-2-3 Say cheese !"!!!!!BOOM!!!!!" (back row support canteen bench down )(one leg breaks)

*Back row falls on second row*

*Camera Snaps*

its 5 weeks before the prelims , and im still slacking , you can watch me , you cant stop me . Ugh~

Please , just ring my throat . Just do it ... ...

The right tools , the wrong person.

2004-07-26T17:27:00.000+08:00

Well , Ive been dying to get my hands on the latest version of Adobe Illustrator Since the day I saw it in action on a total training Video . The coolest stuff such as rendering an object into 3D , changing perspectives ect ect . Seems like a dream come true right ?

"wrong"

The interface is totally different from The Photoshop Series . I must admit that the brushes available are awesome , but the problem is , I cant use them .

What I did :
Used the preloaded symbols , click click click.
Used The Tint Tool , Tint , tint ?
Drew around with the brushes . The white spots would just overlap , making the entire piece look crappy .
Clicked around with the 3D effects . Tilt (lag............................) Tilt (lag........................)
Opened new , whaoz , at least i did something correctly today .

ARGH . At least as a consolation prize , Photoshop CS is here to help . Well , thanks to lippy for the Cds , ive got alot of exploring to do . By the way , IF youre reading this Lip Yeow , don't forget your 5k Word rant . Lets see how long winded you can be ... ... muahahahahha.

The Day isnt going the way I expected . It was more extreme . I could pay attendtion to EVERY lesson , except chem . She must have said a thousand words , I took in little bits and pieces of the lesson .

Note : The School's mentally unwell cases has multiplied four whole times
Initial :
Benidict Chen (4F)
Current :
Benidict Chen (4F) ( not cured yet )
Kenneth Tan (4G)(Reacts explosively to almost everything.) ( New case )
The dude that ran all the way down mount vernon with his hands on his ears . Looking rather possessed (Unknown)(New case)
Lip Yeow (4G)(play , play , play)(new case)

Well , a little comment on Ben Chen. Next to him I was . Tearing the answer sheet he was . Strange I found . Cried he did. AND fianally , Ignored I did.

Its fianally here , its POP week . As we draw closer to the end ... ... (yet to continue)
I still have not done up my speach . (im going to make it so long , SO agonizing you buggers wont even remember how your legs feel like ) My friends , enjoy your stand , enjoy your POP.





Im confused ,
I really am.

I want to tell her

I really do... ...

you are peru
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Your dominant hues are red and yellow... most of what you do is motivated by your need to change things and have a good time, but you've been known to settle down and think out a situation, too. You tend to surprise people just when they're starting to feel like they've got you down.

Your saturation level is higher than average - You know what you want, but sometimes know not to tell everyone. You value accomplishments and know you can get the job done, so don't be afraid to run out and make things happen.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

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Day by day , i look into my stash of money,
Not enough for a camera.

2004-07-25T13:29:00.000+08:00

An abstract , from a dream

The whirl

2004-07-25T12:54:00.000+08:00

I fell asleep , shortly after the clock struck twelve. In my dream , somehow , i was floating in a devillish black forest . Everything was in a mess , With the background sound of a beating heart . The scenes continued to sift , sifting by the seconds . It was a twisted dream . I was partially sleeping through out the night , taking little glances from my alienated bed . It wasnt the bed I was used to , It was the "sickbay" . The dream was blurred , too blurred for any form of recognition .

When I fianally awoke from the nightmare , my head weighed a tonne . I stumbled to the toilet . My body swayed from side to side . Uhhhh......... Damn , i really hate being sick . Well..... it looks like im not going to die ANY time soon , Perhaps just a small tear in my throat , thankfully.

Shortly after waking up , i was greeted with a friendly face . My dog. She specially climbed up the stairs . Just to see me . She used to do that quite often , not anymore . She strangley climbed the stairs today , how nice :D

.....flashback

2004-07-24T17:07:00.000+08:00

The Pulsating pain , growing within my little head . Its feeling like somebody shoved a egg scrambler in my brain , then started using it like a psychopath .

*flashback*

This morning , i was following my brother around the pitch black school . When we strolled past the viewing gallery , voices started to echo within my head . Its not the sort of voices you hear with your ears , its those where you hear , in your head. ARGH... ...

*flashback*

Recalling the time i spent on the NCC . Recalling the HOLIDAYS i spent on ncc. To be precise , the entire june holidays was invested for training . For what ? the BBAQ. One of the most memorable trainings was during the "weekly life run" . The dudes and I had the honour of running with the commandant . Yea , the old , wrinkly commandant . NO! for starters , we set the pace . He followed it , matched every single step we took . All of us Ran 2 rounds of the AMQ camp . Some of us even reported sick shortly during the run . Not the commandant . Well, hes insanely fit for a person of his age .

*ARGH!*
The pain in my head is killing me , im losing control of my visual abilities , must be the chicken rice i ate this afternoon . .... uh~...man....

Well guess what . The pulsating pain slowly evolved into a insane pain that kept me bed ridden for 2 hours . Wen i awoke , a gush of vomit filled my esophagus . I vomited , at least 6 cycles . There after , i hobbled to the light switch with my vomit covered feet . I turned around , i saw a pool of blood , with vomit around it.

Guess I really did forsee my funeral party , perhaps ive seen it too soon... ... just perhaps...

Formal invitation to My funeral party

2004-07-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

To : Whom it may concern
Re: Invitation to my Funeral Party.
Well come one and all to my funeral . For starters let me brief you on the prerequisites of this Jubilant occasion .
Dress code : casual , wild
Time : 13 o clock at night . ( early birds will not be entertained)
Location : The funeral palour .
Note : There is no need for the individual to be human
I sincerely hope everyone of you would enjoy the party filled with traditional funeral games , see you soon .

Yours faithfully
Kenneth Tan
The deceased

2004-07-23T17:08:00.000+08:00

Ver.1 of my latest project..

More deaf , than Blind.

2004-07-23T15:47:00.000+08:00

Humans are the most elusive creatures on the bloody planet. They've got the most complicated nervous system and on top of that , they tend to hide their emotions . Whats the point of god giving us the ability to express feelings with facial features , if we dont really use them ,and yet , we put up a facade . To hide our emotions. Whats the point if you being able to speak , and yet you cant say a word to people .Besides that , we lie , we tell false stories , we divert , we procastinate. Should I say that humans are stupid , not able to use the tools bestowed to them , lets be more precise , per chance . I am stupid , I am unable to use the tools bestowed upon me . Im more deaf than blind? perhaps Im equally lacking in both sight and listening.

My dog , past tense :
Active , lively , curious . She'd gnaw at anything , table legs , toys , everything . She'd Run around the house , without stopping , without rest . Senselessly chasing her own tail .
My Dog , present tense:
Day by day her sleeping hours lengthen,
with a golden locks that began to fade into time .
She sleeps so peacefully by my side ,
eagerly awaiting the arival of another friendly face.
Without a sound ,
without any movement .
Gradually becoming more lethargic
I fear for her ,
I fear for her life.
I guess her end might be near ,
I might soon lose her.
I fear that day.

I cant tell Akira Kosugi,
I really cant :(

2004-07-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

well... some quick paint :D

2004-07-22T15:51:00.000+08:00

I-R-O-N-Y to the max !

First impressions?

2004-07-22T09:02:00.000+08:00

Do they really count , or do they mean absolutely nothing . Writing of this curvacious and SEXAY I mac that Really sucks. Perhaps ... they do..... perhaps they do really affect the present... ...Do impressions really last ? We'll never know . Looks like i've gotta live with my mohawk ... for the class photo ;D

Top eleven Perks from a lousy Thursday:
1) The introduction of a new word to the english dictionary , maobing.
2) A good sleep under the dimmed lights of the classroom ( Lying down)
3) The Lie i told that made some bugger dissapear from my pleasant rest . Wheres jingsheng? Oh oh , hes at the canteen i replied . (well i didnt know where he was , but that sentence did the job)
4) Another Lie which i told to get somebody to the canteen again ( shant mention)
5) The Re-allocation of the Enritchment period to the cantten ( yea everythings in the canteen)
6) Doing exceptionally well for the picture discription and the conversation during the english prelim orals .
7) Finishing 75% of my homework and handing it up today( one terms homework undone)
8) Saw a Sony Cybershot DSC-F717 in real life today
9) Got some good ideas for photographs
10)Got new ideas for photoshop
11)Irritated the piss out of some geek at the water cooler. ( i drank more than his water bottle could hold)

Photographic ideas :
*Photographing slacking TAF club members slacking at the ice cream man.
*Photographing the amazing population of pidgeons behind the ice cream man.

Photoshop ideas:
*The road : not going to be a depressing one , motocycle helmets with orange stripes as background , still figuring how to do it .
*Shout out : Basically a mouth shouting crap ... still developing on idea.

Well here it comes , top three flops for today :
1) Super duper hard Geography test , despite studying
2) Regretting not being harder on the tackle on Denis Koh
3) Over snoozing again , making the tuitor wait for 5 mins

2004-07-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

Maybe then , you will hear the Song of blood

You' ll never appriciate something , UNTIL its gone , perhaps for good.

2004-07-21T17:17:00.000+08:00

As the days past , Kenneth Tan's Passing Out Parade slowly draws near . All these years , With his bunch of merry men . Happily enjoying the NCC life . Although at times , shit comes at their face , BUT , if you actually do stuff together as a Part , as a PLatoon , it doesnt seem that bad . Being forced for free manual labour might sound bad to normal individuals , even Kenneth. However when you're put into such a position , you'll never truely complain about the suffering , because your friends are in this together with you.

Sadly , Kenneth thought little of this , through his years in the NCC , thought little of the welfare of his men . Work Work Work ... ... Perhaps thats the mistake , the Biggest mistake that Kenneth has ever made , perhaps that was the element that caused the downfall of the Best Sea Unit in the history of the NCC . Perhaps if Kenneth had considered that his fellow cadets were friends , were humans , then this would have never happened .

Looking back into the past few months , I have been continuously complaining about how NCC has literally eaten away my week ends , My Leisure time , my life . But somehow , now the blank weekends , the couch potatoing , seemed like it didnt quite fit my life . The moment the GOH marched off , i thought it was over . I thought it was a new begining . No. The past activities have left behind a vaccum , in my life . Theres thois emptyness now , no other form of activity can replace . It seems like now , Im begining to appriciate the company of my friends , my co workers , the people who helped me through all these hardships . Well... I wished i could have thanked them more during my term as the CSM , perhaps even treated them more like human beings .

"welcome to Duloc such a perfect town"
Never will there such a place in the living world , perhaps , this category of place , never would be able to materialize.

consolation prize of the day , a cheap pass in the chemistry level tast :(

2004-07-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

hahahhahhaHAHAHAHA~!!!

Jealousy

2004-07-20T14:55:00.000+08:00

Well , im not jealous , its just that some idiotic teacher in school is . Well its too bad he teaches slow enough , then jumps several chapters just to keep up with my teacher . Thereafter he still makes alot of noise in class... bah.. im not talking about him anymore.... lame piece of ****

Overslept .... wasted more than 2 hours more snoozing . People can be violent when disturbed . I accidentally elbowed my brothers mouth while he was trying to wake me up . then he fell a sleep . so therefore...Its mostly my fault that i oversnoozed. well... back to working... ...

2004-07-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

The Princess... ...